Been sticked together for nearly a month, can't believe I have left him back to that STRESS-LONELY life. I was totally not a FOREEVR-boyfie girlfriend type, but I have to admit this time, I need him and it is so much. People would said 'nah, you are over-sticky', but I bet only people experienced before they will know how much pain of separating and the moment you want to hold him but you can't. It is more painful then couple on the same state but can't meet because of working/busying or other reason.
The moment when he told me he don't even dare to think about i'm leaving, the moment when he asked me ' Babe, can you stay?' I was nearly cried out, nope, I did. He is not childish or simply spoke this out, I knew deep inside of him, he understand the reality that i'm leaving and he knew that spoke that out can't change the situation but he still spoke out because the pain was too much.
Before the day i left, i cried more than him but he always said he is the painest. I don't really understand cause i'm pain as well. But yay, maybe that's still some emotional part of him i can't detect.
Been treated as a princess in the past few months and still counting. I personally don't have many friends 1st is because i don't have the believe in friendship, 2nd is i turns to be abit anti-social after that incident, i don't have the skill of comunicate anymore. It shut down, lol. But thanks i have him as my best friend, my soul mate, my boss, my motivater, my boyfriend, my bodyguard, my nurse and sometime, my dad. And i'm appreciate him on telling me how love should be, i guess he is still learning too and i learn from him.
In the past relationship, i was afraid to show too many of love to my ex-patner because i realize people never appreciate when they get something easily. It is true, and i still trust this concept. Unfortunately, he break the concept, nah not unfortunately haha. I still trust the concept but i know he is the exception, lol!
I know he dislike places which are crowded. He has the symptons such as headache, faint, cramp etc. But the moment when i know the UNIVERSAL HORROR NIGHT started selling, i forgot everythings. And when our's friends told us there will be many people, i was just worry of the queue to play game will be super long but not about he's fear.
Until the moment he told me he feels like he's head gonna BOMB, i just realize how serious was it. And when i was take caring him, he turns to be the one saying sorry to me because can't accompanied me to play game. BABE, I'M SORRY :'(
And thanks, i guess you knew how crowded was the halloween event but still, you promise me brought me to there. I knew everything you sacrifice for me, LOVE YOU.
